Latest Wendig flash fiction challenge is another song shuffle one. And... Pandora says...
I'm rubbing my scar again. A little girl stares at me. I remove my arm from my shoulder. I wish it throbbed. Something. The smooth hill of scar tissue feels like it glosses over that night. The bus recites the stops. They come up fast. I keep my hands in my lap. But I'm thinking I want to rub it again.
It's been five years and I still miss him. More than that, I miss Dallas. It's a place full of hate and lies, but it's home. L.A. for all its acceptance... isn't.
It was night. We were sitting in front of the Book Depository, of all the damned places. We were shoulder to shoulder. My head rested on his shoulder. His hand, on my other side, grabbed playfully at my pecs. Five years had softened and sagged them to man boobs, but I still had my looks.
I get off the bus. I am no longer in the South, I remind myself. I'm in the People's Republic of California, and I'm out, and I'm proud. I wish my scar hurt more. It should throb in pain at the slightest awkwardness when the maitre dee realizes there's a sausage party for two. My shoulder should burn in agony every time I take home a man who isn't Robby. Who can never be Robby.
Robby liked the museum there. He was too young to remember that day... we both were. It gave him some perverse delight to be sitting so close to a turning point for the country.
"Hey fags!" someone shouted. I looked up. Robby's face creased in a nervous wrinkle. It was a well-worn wrinkle that his face fell into often.
"Mister Gunderson," he said. "Surprised to see you out of shop."
The goon laughed. He pulled out a knife.
Robby's gone. But the scar will always remind me of him. Of Dallas. Of the pain that isn't there. That should be there.
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